Hello my lovelies! Just wanted to give y’all a quick update! This past week has been quite the experience. Last Thursday, my right breast was swelling up and I ended up going to the emergency room. Being someone who has formerly gotten a breast reduction and suffered from a hematoma shortly after, I was quite concerned. So I got the the ER at 3:45pm and didn’t actually get a room until 7pm. They ran some tests and came up with nothing, leaving me very aggravated. I had a doctor’s appointment the next day to follow up and it turns out, I WAS HAVING A REACTION TO MY GLUTEN ALLERGY! Like, really? Apparently wine has gluten in it so I have yet another restriction. The water weight of the reaction equalled to 7 pounds. Having body dismorphia, I’m sure you all can imagine the craziness that was going on in my head. Being in recovery with all these allergies has definitely been an obstacle. People still label me as anorexic because I physically can’t eat fast food and other indulgences. However, I know the truth and know that my meal plan is supplying my body all it’s nutritional needs. So haters can hate but I know I am on the truth course of recovery.
The next night, I went over to a friend from school’s house, whom I have become almost sister-like with. It’s funny; I didn’t go the school to make friends, but I meet these amazing individuals and connect almost instantly. Especially with her. She has even honored me with the privilege of being one of her bridesmaids! I was so touched that we have such a powerful connection and I know we will be friends for a very long time. We drank and talked until 4:30am. Not realizing how late it was, I decided to stupidly drive home. As a result, a crazy driver stopped short on the highway and sent me into a 180 degree spin against the guardrail. I was petrified. It happened so fast and, once I gathered myself, I saw that the entire passenger side of my car was totaled! If I hadn’t done that 180, I know I could’ve died or been seriously injured. God was definitely with me that night.
The next morning was a Saturday. But not just any Saturday. I had my technical test for the hair salon within Ulta! Being a licensed hairdresser and still attending school for esthetics has proven to be quite hard when trying to find work. My esthetic teacher, Miss Eileen kindly volunteered to be my model. After I had completed my work, she looks legitimately 10 years younger. I was so proud of myself and she was extremely happy. However, I have another technical test this Friday morning so I am asking for prayer and good vibes toward my way. I felt so defeated after being asked that because I was hoping to get the job in one shot. But I also came to realize that anything worth having is worth fighting for. I will never give up on my dream and I know that, even if I don’t get this job, God has big plans for me.
This is the last week in school before I am on the clinic floor and working on clients. My first client is receiving an Anti-Aging Facial and, unlike most of the other girls, I am not nervous. I work hard and I know I can do this. After all, I love what I do!
If anything, I suppose my message to all you readers out there is to always believe in yourself, even if the voices in the shadows try to step on you along the way. We are all made for greatness. The trick is to not be intimidated by our own worst enemy: OURSELVES.
Verse of the Day:
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” ~Philippines 4:13